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Ah I have a long long story on music and not being able to play it...

When I was in year 3, about the age of 8-9 or something, I couldn't play anything properly, I couldn't get the hang of playing a recorder or flute when we were practising it in year 3 and I couldn't read notes, I still can't do it properly.

My teacher, (I know this is harsh but she's one of the people out of the very small group of people I've met that I actually want to have something bad happen to them...) she used to make me stay after school every day for an hour to make me do my times tables real fast and so that I could try and play recorders and she wasn't "Oh well, you tried, keep going, you'll get better soon" and no, she would shout and scream at me for not being able to do it, and I was only 8 years old ffs...

Even after that I still got taught but couldn't play music well, and I still couldn't read notes, no matter how hard I tried to memorise them, I either didn't have enough time to practise them before we stopped being taught music or I just didn't get taught properly or even ask, I seem to have a problem of not asking for help, no idea why.

However, I'd love to be able to play something a little less modern, I was thinking violin, I'd love to be able to play one, the only problem is I never got round to doing it and I might be able to actually, I had problems with keyboards and pianos because I had to look at the sequence then look at the marked keys. Violins don't require that in a way. I guess when I go to university or have a break I'll have a practise and learn to read notes properly.:)