Thread subject: The Dyscalculia Forum :: anxiety attack and panic attacks
Posted by 23or32 on January 27 2007 05:40 AM
That's exactly it. I work in an IT environment where I've managed to ensure that I deal with users rather than attempt any code-work because I just can't get my head round the logic of it. So there's this fear that I'm a fraud and I'll be found out... :( But if I tried to explain to my bosses, I know that there are personnel procedures in place to protect me etc, but it's the fear of being labelled.
However, I do have anxiety attacks about money, whether it's trying to sort out my finances (and not just because there are none :D but because I can't grasp how to DO it) so I get very very anxious when dealing with a bank, or a company I've to pay money to, etc. To the extent that after an encounter (even checking my bank balance when I know there's money there) I feel very tearful and upset. Wuss, huh? :|
That fear or sense of being fraud is so on the money. When I did computer support I always tried to steer the issues through a process of logical analysis rather than always looking at driver versions etc. I was good at diagnosing issues but if I had to update things or validate data it took some time. and yeah I felt like a fraud or at the very least that I wasn't being true to the job descripton even though I know in truth I was probably working twice as hard to find a resolution to a problem.
And oh my God on the subject of dealing with money in public I could go on and on. Not being able to make correct change in front of your new girlfriend for instance. Talk about mortified.
I always try to pay my bills with even amounts of money just so it's easier to keep my balance streight! and yes I am pretty much Obsessive about my checking account.
No your definately not a wuss..
Edited by 23or32 on January 27 2007 06:04 AM