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Ohhhhhhhh my goodness! I remember being that kid! We did something similar at around the same age at my school, and I was over with the younger kids, shamed out of my mind cause I couldn't ride without training wheels. I did eventually learn, but I was so much older.

I also recall being in Year 6, but being given Yr 5 Maths work to do because ... I don't even KNOW why now. I can't recall having problems at that stage. Although I could never remember how to multiply large numbers. And I couldn't remember my times tables. I recently did some testing for learning disablities (I HAD TO DO MATHS. GAH) and I couldn't do half the questions. With the Yr 5 maths work, I found it boring because I'd done it the previous year, so I didn't do it. And I remember feeling that I NEVER caught up with maths again. I went to quite a few different schools because my family moved, and I feel I slipped through the cracks. Too easy to blame my inability on the different ways I was taught, and having holes in my knowledge. So I chucked it in as soon as I could.

Then when I was at university this year - I don't know WHAT made me do it, or think of it, but I recalled hearing about Dyscalculia years before, (I'd seen it on Degrassi - at the time I'd asked my mum but she'd said that I'd been screen for learning disabilities as a kid, so I'd then resigned myself to being a bit stupid, really) so I searched it. My god, I was staring at myself.

So now I'm in the process of being diagnosed. It's fun. (Insert sarcasm here.) I cried when talking about it lol. Recounting my past experiences where I've been panicked to the eyeballs cause I CAN'T do what I'm being ask to do. I decided against doing my degree because of it. I remember I started learning driving theory at 17, and I realised I didn't know my left from my right. I've still not learned how to drive. And I just DON'T KNOW how I unknowingly lived with it, (I don't know how I'm going to knowingly live with it either) feeling so unevenly distributed and stupid in maths but intelligent in other areas.

I've been told it's a gift, that I'll come to see it. Can anyone tell me if they've found that to be the case at all??

So here I am. Hi, everyone!