Posted by Fennec on July 02 2012 01:00 PM
Has anyone else lost their job due to dyscalculia? (Or been close to that happening?)
I'm sorry, I just need a place to ramble and frankly you're the only people who get it.
A couple of months ago, I was making decent money (well, nothing great, but better than I had ever made) at Whole Foods. For the first time in my life, I thought I was becoming a self-sufficient individual and that I could finally begin to climb out of my financial hole. Unfortunately, although I thought I was doing well on an overall level, I didn't meet the company's expectations. I was terminated after the month-long trial.
After having things pointed out to me, I understand how I messed up some things. For example, I worked far slower than my coworkers, and in addition I was clumsy in how I did things (organize the refrigerator, pull the breads, etc.).
Now I am working for Victoria's Secret. I'm messing up again.
One way I'm messing up is in how I measure customers for their appropriate bra size. For the longest time, I thought I was counting the inches wrong. Turns out I was actually getting my measurements incorrect because I was HOLDING THE TAPE INCORRECTLY. And that just baffles me. I was shown how to hold the tape over and over and I just... I just kept doing it wrong. It's like my hands aren't listening to my brain! But this is so humiliating because my coworkers mastered this simple skill many weeks ago. Turns out I'm far behind everybody, and now they're getting promoted up to specialists. I can't be promoted (which isn't as glamorous as it sounds; you HAVE to be promoted) until I master measuring. So guess what my supervisor did? She had me practice over and over on my coworkers yesterday while they all gave me "wow, you're an idiot" expressions.
I messed up in other ways as well. For example, a customer came to me looking for a specific bra. I checked the drawers, concluded we ran out of that bra, and paged the downstairs to see if there were any in stock. None were down there. So I apologized to her and said that we were out. ...Turns out I confused the style. She complained to someone, then over the walkie-talkie it was announced that the customer had been wronged and she was very upset. It was easy to conclude that the person who messed up was me because I was the only person in that room at the time.
Finally, a coworker and I were given bathing suits to put back from the dressing room. There were BAGS of bathing suits. To make it quicker, I focused all of my attention on putting them away while I thought my coworker was okay helping customers. It turns out she was overwhelmed, but instead of explaining this to me she instead told a manager. So then the manager chewed me out. I wasn't trying to be rude!
Every time I post here it's always over something negative involving my dyscalculia. I'm sorry about that, really. I swear I have tried to look for the positives in our LD (creative ways to solve problems, etc.) but it just seems like I'm deluding myself. Sigh...
It's obvious that I'm going to have to talk with all of my supervisors about my disability. How do I go about doing this? I cannot afford to lose yet ANOTHER job.
Edited by Fennec on July 02 2012 01:01 PM